It's weird being up this early.

I woke up at 7am, though I crawled back under the covers and sat there warming back up for about 15 minutes before I crawled out of the nice warm blankets again and took my shower. In a few minutes I am going to go finish drying my hair and get dressed, eat some cereal maybe (not sure when the milk is supposed to go bad), and head out to pick up some job applications and fill them out. I think in all total I have 6 places to apply at today, plus the two places I've sent or am sending resumes to.

So my goals for today: Apply at 4 of the 6 places, call the other two and hopefully apply there as well. Also, I'm trying to stay positive about today and not get too nervous or scared.

Job Hunting progress

Amber:

Thank you for the resume you submitted regarding our Tech Support Trainee position. We will be reviewing applications and contacting those selected for interviews hopefully later this week. I will also notify you by email if you are not selected for an interview at that same time. Thank you for your interest.

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And I only got to apply at 2 places today. Couldn't find one place (I drove past where it should have been at least 3 times... maybe I was on the wrong end of town I'm not sure) and the other place, noone came to the front of the building in the whole half hour I sat there and waited so I decided I'd either try again later or mail a copy of my resume to them.

Tried calling one place and it was busy. The other place there was no answer so I think I will e-mail them and see what I need to do in order to apply.

Found 2 more jobs to try applying to

Both are with K-State. One is for an Administrative Assistant position and the other is a Library Assistant position. Printing off the application form they have online and once I fill those out, I'll work on cover letters so I can submit them with my resume.

Bleh

Or maybe I won't apply for the K-State positions... at least not the Admin Assitant one. My printer just ran out of black ink while I was printing out the completed application. I can't very well turn in a half-there application and nothing else when they are asking for the application, resume and cover letter. Maybe I can get some more ink this week and be able to print out the stuff needed for the Library Assistant Position.

I have no idea what I will do...

We talked for a little bit. He says he just can't give me a chance to work with him to fix our marriage.

I am still not willing to give him a divorce. I will give him a separation though to give him time to sort things out and give me a chance to change my life for the better and then maybe we can start working towards patching things up. I refuse to believe that divorce is the only answer to this situation.

so stuff

Since it seems I'll be on my own for awhile, I need to get my ass in gear and find a job NOW!

Rent has been paid for the month so at least I have a roof over my head. But I'm not sure how anything else will get paid since the paycheck that gets deposited in our checking account next friday is all Matt's income and I'm not sure yet how we're going to be dealing with the apartment and expenses and such.

I hope to God he agrees on at least a separation in place of a divorce so that we can at least take a couple months from each other and I can get my life together and then see if he still feels the same way after a break.

Tomorrow I need to go to Edwards Hall and pick up an application and then I guess go to Wal-Mart and spend a little bit of what little is left in our checking account and get a new ink cartridge for my printer so I can print off a resume and cover letter to turn in for the Library Assistant position with K-State.

I also need to call Little Apple Toyota about their receptionist position they advertised in the paper today. And I will probably go back to the accountancy place tomorrow to see if anyone's there to give me an application.

I should probably go eat something now since I haven't had anything to eat since lunch today.

Well, since my future is very uncertain right now...

I've gone ahead and filled out an application with http://www.dstsystems.com/index.html which is the company my Mom works for. If they hired me, I'd end up moving back to Salina but at least I'd have income and could stay with Mom til I could afford deposit and first month's rent somewhere in Salina.

Tomorrow morning I'm supposed to call Ann. She's gonna go with me to a couple places I want to apply at since she also has a couple errands to run on campus (one of the places I am applying). Hopefully I start hearing back from some of these places I've applied to soon.

Starting to feel a bit sleepy so I think I'm going to post this, wash up my dinner dishes, then head into the bedroom and write in my regular journal a bit before I fall asleep.